Ain't a girl no more.
Daddy's little girl ain't a girl no more.

NIRVANA. On a Green Day skin. >.<

Wanna know what I've been up to lately?

Nothing, to be honest. I'm sorry I haven't updated anything on my dA account. My computer that's hooked up to the scanner has been broken for a while. So, I can't really submit anything.

If you really wanna know me, follow me on twitter. twitter.com/im_a_panda

I had a mental breakdown yesterday and fell to the floor, crying, screaming "FUCK" at the top of my lungs. Luckily, I was home alone. I was tempted to record my entire breakdown on my phone, but I figured I probably wouldn't wanna listen to it any time soon.

Reason for my breakdown? I feel like I'm losing friends left and right. I mean, I have friends, but I don't have any really close friends.

And all of my close friends that I have I can never hang out with because my dear parents keep me locked up in the house like an illegal gun. Seriously.

Consider this my confession: I write hate letters to myself. I post them on my bedroom door so that I can read them whenever I want to.

Why do I write them? I don't know. I think it's so that if anyone ever really hates me and starts talking shit about me, I can point to the letters and be like "Ha! I don't care what you said, because anything you say, I've already written it to myself."

Hatemail is sometimes a good purgation of emotions.

What I want you to know about me/Confessions:
-I will always deny that I am pretty. I look in that mirror and I try to smile and call myself pretty, but I just can't.
-I took a picture of myself in a bikini and sent it to this guy, Mason. I'm not proud of it. When I sent it, I even put "Maybe I should hate you for this" in the message. I deleted it from my phone and now I'm trying to delete it from his.
-I don't believe in half the things that the church says to me. Gay marriage isn't wrong. Abortion isn't wrong. Religion does/should NOT play a role in American politics.
-I went to see the Fourth Kind and I wasn't scared... at first. After the movie, I was laughing about it, but then... I woke up at 3 a.m. and I swear, I was so scared, I ran into my little brother's room and snuck into his bed, hoping not to wake him up.
-Confession: Yes, I still do that. I'm fourteen years old and when I'm scared, I run to someone else's bedroom and try to sleep next to them.

Things that I completely approve of:
-Gay marriage
-Abortion
-Sleeping in the same bed with someone that you are NOT married to.
-Suicide. I don't condone it. I understand.

Things that I will never approve of:
-Statutory rape
-Sexting
-Girls that stuff their bras
-Flirty girls
-Dudes that are assholes

Things that I am neutral about:
-Murder
-Religion
-Prostitutes

My life plan:
1. Get a job at 16.
2. Finish high school with honors.
3. Move out of the house the day that high school ends.
4. Support myself through college.
5. Go to law school.
6. Always keep writing/drawing/playing drums to keep my dreams alive.
**Note: Boyfriends need not apply. Friends, however, are a must.

If I could have been born any year, it would be 1985.
Why?:
I would have been old enough to truly understand music. I wouldn't be living in a world where women and men aren't equal. I would be able to get an education before this whole Recession crisis. I would be 23 by now and be free to go to see my favorite bands right now, such as All Time Low and Sing It Loud.

People I wish were still alive:
-Bradley Nowell.
-Kurt Cobain
-Jim Morrison
-Freddy Mercury
-David Carradine
-DJ AM

Concerts I have missed:
December 12, 2008- Phantom Planet, the Trabadour, L.A., CA
April 8, 2009- Fall Out Boy, Sacramento Convention Center Complex, CA
July 31/August 1, 2009- My Chemical Romance, the Roxy, L.A., CA
August 21, 2009- Warped Tour, Sacramento, CA
September 12, 2009- Blink-182, Sacramento, CA
September 27, 2009- Emily's Army, Telegraph St., Sacramento, CA
October 30, 2009- Emily's Army, 924 Gilman St., Berkeley, CA
November 8, 2009- Bandworks, Ashkenaz, Berkeley, CA
November 11, 2009- All Time Low, The Grand Ballroom, San Francisco, CA
November 11, 2009- The Used, Warfield, San Francisco, CA

Concerts I have been to:
April 11, 2008- Panic At The Disco, Warfield, San Francisco, CA
June 27, 2009- Warped Tour, Pier 39, San Francisco, CA
August 18, 2009- Green Day, HP Pavilion, San Jose, CA
August 14, 2009- Green Day, Arco Arena, Sacramento, CA
October 11, 2009- The AP Fall Ball, The Grand Ballroom, San Francisco, CA

Yeah. I don't know if I'm depressed or not.

But that's about it. That's all I really wanted you all to know about me.

~Micky

P.S. My favorite color is purple, my favorite number is 21, and my favorite movie is Fight Club.


EDIT! 2:48 P.M.

My favorite bands in the order in which I love them:
1. My Chemical Romance
2. Green Day
3. All Time Low

All the other bands that I like fall somewhere after these three.